It’s been a while…again 
Well, here we go.
I feel like a single again now and then, since Croga had to go on assignment in the far north. Due to that he is not home anymore during the week. He leaves sunday afternoons and comes back home friday evenings. I hate it, but can’t do anything about it other than make the best of it all. So I do my own thing during the week, and hope the weeks go by fast. As things look now he has to go there for at least six months, maybe even a year *hmpf*
And then there is my knee problem; I was having pains in my right knee that went from annoying to really very painful. In fact it became that painful that I decided to go to the doctor. He told me to go to the orthopaedic surgeon because he couldn’t make anything of it. That was 10 days ago and now I’m recovering from an arthroscopy in my knee. Which, by the way, wasn’t the solution to my pain. They didn’t find anything that causes the pain in my knee. My knee is perfectly okay on the inside, which is good of course. But some part of me rather had they found something so my pain would go away. And now they are going to look further. A part of me is afraid it might be rheumatism. That’s likely because it runs in the family. My sister has a form of it and my grandma did too. Well, we’ll see. I hope for the best, and hopefully they can take away my pain.
I am still working though, to make my business growing. Trying to get more clients which is not easy in the light of the whole economical crisis.
Keeping in touch with friends and family is also still important to me.
But I am a bit sad lately, I feel lonely very often when Croga is away. I miss my dad a lot sometimes. And sometimes I got this very strong feeling that he is around me. I don’t know, maybe it’s in my head, maybe his energy is actually still around me. I miss him, I miss his jokes, his laughter, his guidance and advice. I feel I’m alone in everything sometimes. *sigh* Yes, I am feeling sorry for myself, which amazes me cause that’s not who I am normally. I always look at things from a brighter side but now I can’t for some reason. Nothing bright about Croga being away 5 nights in the week, nothing bright about the pains in my knee. Ah well, tomorrow everything looks different again…
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